Monday, January 7, 2008

Presenting...






Here he is dad, your little grandbaby, Keagan Willem Deckert. He's 6 months old now and not a day goes by that I don't wish you were here to know this amazing son of mine. You would be so in love with him. I can imagine you rocking him and singing to him and what a calm, steady presence you would be for him.

He's got your dimple on his chin. And he just may have your short legs... we'll see, time will tell :)

I miss you a lot Dad. I'm thankful I had you for my father. I'm not sure if I ever told you that. I hope I did. I'm sorry if I never did. I know I wasn't thankful for many years throughout our relationship. There was so much chaos inside of me. I'm so much more at peace now, within. I wish you were still alive so we could have had a more peaceful relationship. I'm discovering a "peace" where I'm at in my grief. There's sadness and longing, but also, peace. A peace about you and me that I haven't had before.