Thursday, June 25, 2009

Varying Sadness

I miss you, dad. I thought as the years went by, I'd miss you less and less. But actually, I am missing you more now, seven years later, as life goes on without you. It's a different kind of sadness now... there's still sadness with longing and regret, but also sadness with peace. It's more of a "quiet and reflective" sadness rather than the chaotic, choking sadness of the early years. I don't know if I'll ever feel at peace about your death, but I think I'm letting you go. I think I'm saying goodbye. And there is great sadness in that.

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